Saturday, 5 September 2009


This isn't a comedy blog.

I had a great Birthday for those that wondered, today personal was hard I got smashed on the head accidentally with a car boot quite a lot so got some mild concussion and it was the most painful experience ive had in a very long time.

So over the last 2 weeks i've had a lot of support from all sides, from people I didn't expect to get support from and more support from people I didn't expect.
So many people have told me not to leave and to carry on, to make videos for myself. And as much as I love the people ive met and the subscribers that watch my videos. I simply wasn't enjoying it. I refuse to come back to soon.

Of course theres aspects of Youtube that I miss.

So I want you people that read this to help me and although I half expect to know the answers already, take everything you've seen in videos and read about my situation and answer honestly.

- Should I do one blogtv show every 2 weeks?
- Should I post one video a month until I feel I can produce more?

Just answer in the comments :) (Yes Yes) (No No) (Yes No) (No Yes)
Thank you

In other news I might have different projects on the go aswell.
Me and Lex are planning to do a podcast that we've spoken about for sometime which I actually think would turn out really well. Basically its called DoctorDuck, and the format is unknown, but will/should be good :)
I go back to college on Wednesday which is going to be strange but fine I suppose.

Also, I really really really want to make a thank you video, the support I've had recently has actually been really overwhelming, some messages and comments make me happy cry which is sweet i know lol. But I do worry that if i make a video people will get all 'You said you were leaving you fucking attention seeking twat' And it'll be a bit =/ I know its my channel and could do what I like but I do value what people think.

Comment and let me know what you think on everything

Ben x


Luna said...

yes yes :]

Marley said...

Yes and yes :D

Anonymous said...

Do BlogTV when you feel like it, make videos when you feel like it. simplez :)

Anonymous said...

yes and i don't think you should feel tied down to make a video, just do them when you feel like it.

Figgy said...

Yes, yes :D

But don't feel like you have to do it for anyone, like Anon said, do it when you feel like it otherwise it will become a chore.

Josie said...

Yes No - However much I would like to see new videos from you, I don't think you should make them if you don't feel like you want to. The same goes for blogTv but from what I could tell I thought you got a lot out if blogTv unlike YouTube. :]

Del said...

I'm going to be boring and say YES and YES. I love your blogtv shows and videos so would love fro you to do some more of those things.

Ruby said...

No , no .

Even though it would be nice to see a video every month. I believe it´s important to stick to a decision, I think you should stay away from making videos for as long as you need, and that way it´ll probably feel better coming back and making more later on in the future, if you do,

If you just start making them now it´ll start feeling like a chore and you wont enjoy it, and thats the most important thing.

As to the Blogtv thing. I think you should do a blogtv whenever you want, if you want to.

If you´re in the mood for some interaction the blgtv way, then just let it be known on twitter.

Much love, Ruby xx

Mark said...

yes yes :-) please mate

JodieeGoesRawrr said...

Arghh. I can't say either yes or no. i mean, It would be nice, but then again i don't think you should do it if you don't want to. I'm going to go for yes to both, but not with the set time. just do it when and if you want to :)

torii. said...

Yes, yes. I miss you <3

Hannah said...

I think you should do it as and when you feel like it, but don't feel tied down to doing one every 2 weeks/every month. If it so happened to be at those intervals, fantsastic. If not, doesn't matter.

I don't know your reasons for wanting to leave, but just 'not enjoying it' is a very valid reason to stop. However, we as the community love your input and would really miss you, which we've made known. If this has affected you, and you feel like your original reasons for leaving might not be so relevant anymore, then by all means come back! This is what we wanted, hence the videos, etc. We wouldn't think badly of you because we'd have what we want! But I can understand your hesitation. Basically, if you want to come back, that's all that matters. You might get some 'comments', but fuck them. We love you, and hopefully we've shown that. All it boils down to is how you feel about it, and whatever your decision, well respect you.

Sorry for the essay, much love. Hannah.

Sazily said...

Yes, Yes
IF and only if, you enjoy doing them. If you don't enjoy it, then no don't. If you're sitting there filming a video but arent enjoying it, don't do it and if you get on blogtv and aren't enjoying it and are just doing it for something to do, then no.

Soryr I wasn't much help.
annd I'm glad you had a good birthday.

I'll chat to you on skype sometime

rantsbyrichard said...

yes and yes, your blogtv shows are the best, and youtube isnt the same without you <3

Anonymous said...

No, No. I think you should maybe do blogtv, but only when you feel like it, not be tied down to a schedule. It seemed like you enjoyed blogtv more than videos, but thats just my personal opinion.

It's up to you. I'd personally like to see you doing blogtv, but not if you dont feel happy doing it.

Anonymous said...

i don't think you should force yourself to make videos on a schedule when you don't want to.
you'll come to resent it because you'll see it as something you *have* to do rather than something you *want* to do.
make videos as often (or not) as you want
i'd much rather see a video you enjoyed making once a year, than a video you hated making because it felt like a chore once a month

Bill said...

No, no

Doctor, As long as the podcast, video, written word fulfills your need to create...then do it.

I did 26 years of morning radio and had to have four hours of material every day. It was great fun but it was also a paying job.

I say that unless someone is paying you big bucks to create, then whatever you do should be for your own satisfaction. If you enjoy it, then everyone else will too.

This doesn't mean you won't be missed. Just know that when you're ready please let me know where you'll be and what you'll be doing and I'll be there. Be well, my friend!

Anonymous said...

yes and yes, as long as you want to and are enjoying it.xx

epsilon8entity said...

This has to be your decision and you shouldn't do anything you don't enjoy.

If I'm answering would I like to see you back, then yes to both BlogTV & YT.

If you do decide to come back then only do it when you feel ready, but please, don't produce videos to a schedule. If you think of a good idea for a video and want to make it then do that. You'll enjoy that more than thinking "oh no, it's almost the end of the month, what shall I do in the video?"

BlogTV, on the other hand, perhaps does work better to a schedule, that way everyone knows when to turn up to the show.

So, sure I'd like to see you back but only if you enjoy what you are doing.

Actorbaybee said...

yes and if you feel like it

Louise said...

yes, yes.

do what you feel is right. <3

Laura said...

yes, yes, although i dont think you should make it feel like a chore or something you have to do, otherwise they might just get boring, so i think it shouldnt be a definite schedule :)

John said...

yes yes, and the podcast sounds a good idea.

Anonymous said...

I'd like to say yes yes, but i think you should do blogtv when you feel like it and make videos when you feel like it, that way you're doing it because you want to... not have to. :)

Mark said...

yes and yes,

but only do vids and live streams when you feel like doing them, as i guarentee you will enjoy them more yeah :-D

Anonymous said...

It has to be your call. If it's just going to creatively and emotionally drain you, or make you not want to come back to youtube on a more regular basis later, then I say no. But if you have ideas you want to share, then do it. Don't commit yourself to a schedule you will grow to resent (as wonderful as blogtv shows and videos would be). I'm trying not to be selfish. :)

Jonny said...

yes, and only if you want to.
It's completely up to you.

Barry Aldridge said...

Benjy if you are feeling up to doing videos and BlogTV then I would say Yes to both.

Take your time before you make a final decision though.

Amycakes said...

i'ma say yes yes because your blogtv shows and videos are bloody AMAZING. just YES. ^_^ however, just do what you want to do. i'd hate to be having a blast in your blogtv show/watching your videos when it feels like a chore to you. <3