Wednesday 24 June 2009

June 24th and I'm in a shoddy mood

So I'm having one of those 'im going to delete my youtube account' sort of moods.

Tonight im doing blogtv and most likely announce that it'll be my last one until August, so all the pea's will be there and it'll be really good fun! I hope...

But Ill post another video soon on my channel and then nothing til August, im just going to take a break from it all. I'll still be on skype to talk to and things like that but it's not that I feel overloaded by Youtube because I don't I have taken a big step away from it this year. Although I've enjoyed it loads this year gaining a 1000 subscribers, going to the gathering and all sorts was really good. I dont want this blog to become a sob story because its not but if one more person says 'You think your a Youtube celebrity but your not' im going to go mad. There is no such thing as a Youtube Celebrity they do not exist, what makes me a Youtube celebrity? The fact I go on blogtv alot and ask people to come along and chat? That I made a video rapping about the Youtube community and wanted it to do well? Im sorry if you think i'm a Youtube celebrity because your deluded.

I enjoy interacting with lots of people getting to know new people entertaining them in what ever way I can.
Its nothing to do with 'becoming famous'

So to sum up:
Last blogtv until August tonight
My next video will be my last until August

Anyway i've got to go reply to fan mail from all my Youtube fans, I might not reply as theres so many so dont be disappointed!

Finally if you have a problem with me, can you just tell me rather than just talk about me?

Benjy

Wednesday 17 June 2009

YouTube Community Rap

I actually like it :)

Tuesday 16 June 2009

I must blog more.

I predict Ive had that as a title for a blog before but I really should, I did go through a phase when I did it a lot and getting things out in the open does help with things but I guess recently I've not needed this as an output as everything has just been going really well.
But for those of you that read this you must care a little to what I have to say, so I might as well let you know.
I've done all my first year exams, in fact I finished last Friday and it feels good actually, having got that year which to be honest was very up and down out of the way. I'm back at college now which to be honest is good, Elly not really enjoying it already as all of a sudden I have gone from having 3 free blocks to 12, which means that obviously I'm not at college as much which consequently means I wont see her as much but we'll work round it. I'm currently only studying 2 subjects (Media and PE) that both have projects that interest me so it should be good fun. College is still a bit weird for me all of the 2ND years have left now (the year I was in at school) so a lot of friends have moved on to work or high education and University so for me more than most college feels quite empty. I just hope that me been this positive about work and college carries on into next year and I don't let the summer drain me. A year ago today I was a TOTALLY different person with things being so far away from what they are now its surreal for me. I have to say I love my life right now, everything good, obviously there are a few things that could change to improve it but I reckon that they'll come in time.

Moving onto the Interwebs.. Youtube is looking really positive my subscribers go up everyday by about 5 which is steady progress for me, which I like. It's weird that I value Youtube alot more now that I've taken a step back from it, I used to be to involved and you get caught up and burn out but looking at everything from a distance is fun. I've got a video to film tomorrow which will be really satisfying to make as I've always wanted to do something like it and well finally I am with a little help from a friend!

I WILL blog more I promise.

Benjy


P.S. If you do read my blog can you just comment to let me know, not because I want to know who reads but because I have no idea how many people do! Thank you folks :)