Tuesday, 23 December 2008

Tuesday, 16 December 2008


So I didnt really blog much towards the end of the week and over the weekend, illness was the cause of that so sorry to anyone that expected a blog.

I read my friends blog yesterday, said he'd been away for abit didnt tell anyone because he went away to do Army training. Now alot of people would say he's my best mate and in alot of way its true, but he went away didn't tell me came back hasnt made ANY contact with me despite me making some kind of effort everyday. Im waiting for the excuse tomorrow or whenever it might be.

Im not gonna run after him anymore, he can do what he likes when he likes to be honest.

I consider myself quite a good friend, ill check up on people now and then make sure there doing ok, but not be to pushy because the last thing i want to do is bug people. In the past ive made some big mistakes with friends and its cost me them, theres some people that i wish i was better friends with and some I wish I'd never got involved with, but thats about forming bonding and making use of what with have, and in this world thats eachother.

Anyway todays been a bit dull, I played a netball match which wasnt as fun as it sounds in PE as it was the last PE lesson with that teacher of the year, and the in Media watched something with Sean Bean in it, but i cant remember what it was, ive got a good memory like that, Elly was away in London on a photography trip and that just meant i couldnt be bothered with Science in the afternoon so just didnt go. hate lieing to my Dad. but its the first time ive missed anything in a while. It was to cold to go bike to and from college for an hour lesson.
Ive just been informed ive work for Fridays PE lesson brilliant, i already know ill do a half arsed attempt at that.

So anyway I might come back after Snooker which is where im heading now,

Speak soon

Friday, 12 December 2008

Welcome to DoctorBenjy's blog

So its Friday night and im writing this ahead of time, as you may be reading this as I've linked you from my video.

If you dont know what video im talking about then here [insert video link here] If your reading this i've not made it yet.

Bookmark it favourite it put it on your blogroll, im blogging alot at the moment so if your interested in my life then Hi.

Speak soon

Friday, a sore point

Ok Hello,

I was ill today, felt rubbish yesterday as the blog suggested, ive 15 minutes to get this posted in time, its more a personal thing, i know people wouldnt be to bothered, but its nice to have a bit of discipline.

So, im tired and going to bed but, in other news a Youtube project will kick off soon that im involved in, Its exciting :)

Stay tuned.

Update Vlog sort of video tomorrow I hope.

Speak Soon

Thursday, 11 December 2008

Thursday, Titles confuse me.

So.. today was alrite, rained alot, annoyed me, got into Media abit late, sorted myself out, sat down.
That was Media

Had a free period, had a Morrison's breakfast, went back to college, break time... Science, we did revision. It was exciting =/


Then had lunch then had badminton, and felt ill had a partner for the doubles, id have got more life out of the racket, he was appauling. Made me sad.

Got home in the rain and I watched Juno with Elly :)

Although I felt shit and feel really bad now, i blame the Orange Squash I had, its all happened since that glass. Grrrrrr.

Ok im going to bed now :(

I NEED TO POST A VIDEO, any idea's?
Sorry this blog has been crap, but i really cant be bothered. But next year 2009, im going to Blog EVERY DAY, ill make a video about it i imagine, will be nice to do something like that ALSO, theres a project soon to kick off that will be exciting stay tuned for details ;)

Speak Soon


Wednesday, 10 December 2008

Wednesday, A bit dull.

Im tired, so this will be quite brief and boring I think.
I woke up went to college did 2 lesson's had 2 cancelled came home, Elly came a few hours later, we stayed at mine til, about 6 then went Christmas shopping with a friend of mine, so i bought a few gifts :)

A highlight of today though was on the journey to Ellys when we took her home, my dad say I had lunch at that place Tube.. something, i was thinking is he mocking Youtube ? in actually fact the place he had it was 'Subway' and he said Tube! was a genius moment lol

Ok im done and ill blog alot more tomorrow.

Speak Soon

Edit: 2 minutes after posting this: I changed the layout to try and make me more productive today.

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Tuesday, On time.

Right I wrote in my last blog this would contain 2 things both of which I have forgotten so ill go back and check then return as if me going and checking never happened although your reading this so know it did and I've created a big world of lies and I've no realised this is irrelevant although I'm not going to delete it as it makes it look as if i had more to write.

Emotion and the fact its good to cry.

Recently we've been talking about stereotypes in Media Studies at college, and it made me think that we do live in a world where we think about them a lot and judge people because we aren't open enough to be honest and say what we think, we'd rather tag along to something that isn't true so we can feel more secure and 'fit in' with the group or class. In recent years, decades we have over come stereotypes i think, but people find it hard to adjust to things that are different. We were asked to come up with things that are stereotyped for Males and Females for example:
Strong : Weak
Blue : Pink
Sex : Love

Then one girl in the class said, 'Twat:Girl' trying to be funny, i just thought no, you cant use a past experience of yourself or a friend and then try and use it as a stereotype and plant onto other people, I'm open to people expressing themselves and letting other's know what they think but when people come out with rubbish like that it makes me slightly ashamed to be a male. If women genuinely think that we're twat's then the human race wouldn't survive, you need us as much as we need you. That how it works.
I'll admit there are males in this world that are stupid, make silly decisions without thinking, say things when they need to shut up and talk inappropriately about other people and i like to think i don't do any of those so why should i be told that I'm a twat in that manor because I'm male 'i must be'
Know what happened to individuality, is it lost in this world that we all need to be labeled 1 by 1 in a big line so we have some sort of status to everyone else. If so its not a human race I want to be involved in.
(That last bit sounded like a suicide note)

This weeks been tough, I've made some life changing decisions that nobody could understand unless you sat down with me and i told you it all, which I've done with nobody.

I'm not ashamed to say my girlfriend saw me cry for the first time this week, i sat in my room after having a bit of joke with her, then turned over and just broke down, id done it the day previous without anyone knowing, but i couldn't hold it in, i knew she thought 'Its me, what have i done :(' but that wasn't the case, I needed help with a decision and stood at the window and looked into the sky for ages and didn't take my eyes off the night sky looking for a bit of guidance, Now I'm an Atheist and don't believe that god exists but, ill look up because i think its better than looking down, I miss my Grandad and Grandpa who I've mentioned before. Ive not thought about them much till this week as i had moved on.
But going back to the stereotyping, why boys and picked on or laughed at if they cry is stupid, i talk to a guy in my Science set at college about crying a lot and we agree that if you want to cry and let you feelings out then you should. I'm not saying i cry everyday and I'm an emotional wreck, i just think that something you need to let go and open the taps.

At the moment I'm really happy, but the last weeks been a bit tough.
Also I need to say this somewhere because i tell the girl involved to F**K OFF!
The conversation went like this.
Me: He looks like my Grandad
Her: I don't like him
Me: My Grandads dead
Her: Good
Me: (look of wtf did you just say)
Her: I killed him. *she laughed

Because shes a girl I shut up sat quietly and was in the mood for the next few hours
(she didn't know he'd died this year or that i was upset already but, NOT THE POINT


OK I'm done ill forget about it now i suppose.
But don't be surprised if tomorrows blog is
'Wednesday, My last day at college.'

Thanks for reading through I hope it made sense i enjoy writing lots like this.

Speak Soon

Monday, Late

Ok well i was late with Monday, typical. I feel asleep at about 10.30 .
I just woke up and saw Lewis' (LSmurf) msn message referring to this, what i let down i am.

Monday went like this,
Couldnt be Bothered to get up, but eventually did, go into college late, only to discover the lesson i was let for got cancelled, so had some time to finish my Essay for Physical Education. Oh the joys, handed that in on time, no idea how i did that.

Media, was fun routine as normal sat down watched some video talked about Male Female sterotypes, it was quite interesting.
Then Lunch with Elly and Tutor period which lasted the classic 5 minutes even though i have to say and wait an hour for it.

Then Elly came round, then the SPOOKS
Omg if thats not the most amazing programme ever then someone tell me what is (DoctorWho is not)
Cant wait for next series they left us with a MASSIVE cliff hanger, o my days so good.

I promise todays blog will be bigger and better and ill actually remember :)

Speak soon


*Im going to talk about emotion and the fact its good to cry =D

Sunday, 7 December 2008

Wake up

Ive given up punching and pushing Elly to wake up, so im blogging at listening to Greg Holden's Art of Falling, as im in love with it!

Speak soon

. i really couldnt be bothered to blog lol

Starting on Monday

I will blog about my day everyday, might be exciting :) lets see.

Night all


Thursday, 4 December 2008

Things about me

I've read so many of these im jumping on the bandwagon.

1. What's your name?
Benjamin Douglas Alan Carr

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
My white plimsouls, and stripy jumpers

3. Last thing you ate?

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
The floor

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
Put it down you silly person

6. Last person you hugged?

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
Yes, Jones =/

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
I've tried it and happy I have but, No.

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
I've got hard legs (One person in this world will get that)

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
The dining room?
Serious answer: The Elite (Fish and Chip shop in Leeds)

11. Who is your best friend?
I haven't got a best friend, ive lots of amazing ones.

12. What time of the day is it?
Depressingly 23.28 (is this the most pointless question?)

13. Who/What made you angry today?
The weather

14. Baseball or Football?
Football, the English version, upsets me i have to write the english version lol

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
I havn't

16. Favorite type of Food?
Was pasta now its............ ok its still pasta

17. Favorite holiday:
Disneyland Paris, All 3 times

18. Do you download music:
Used to download LOADS of it illegally but a letter stopped that =/
So I pay for it all!

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Yes, but i wont do anything about it.

20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
I dont have an opinion

21. Would you date the person who posted this?
So many people have so simply no.

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
Yes! omg Yes!

23. Do you love anyone?
Yes I Do

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
I'd never make the first move

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
No, but something to before I die.

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
See the above question

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you
Yes, Ive told my Dad no.

28. How many pets do you have?
2 Fish Minnie and Mickey

29. Have you met a real redneck?
Jones had sunburn once?

30. How is the weather right now?
Dark and cold

31. What are you listening to right now?
BBC Radio 5 Lives Fighting Talk Podcast Best of show.

32. What is your current favorite song?
Greg Holden - Art of Falling <3

33. What was the last movie you watched?
21: The Movie (About Blackjack in vegas)

34. Do you wear contacts?

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
Elly's house.

36. What are you afraid of?

37. How many piercings have you had?

38. What piercings do you want?
I dont want any.

39. What's one thing you've learned this year?
That Youtube is a website but the people on it are more than that, That college is needed for my future, theres someone out there that I can love properly.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Great Yarmouth now has one! And Hot Chocolate

41. What Magazines are you reading?
I have the internet, whats a magazine?

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
Yep, lots of fun with a lazer gun.

43. Are you missing someone?
More than one, but a few ALOT, the sad thing is they dont even know lol

44. Favorite TV show?
Spooks currently

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
No i dont.

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
Basil Brush is a celeb?

47. What celeb do you look like?
Well Brad Pitt looks like me.

48. Who would you like to see right now?
Elly :(

49. Favorite movie of all time?

50. Do you find yourself loved?
Yep, so much and im so lucky

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to?
Who hasn't. Beth(sister) has learnt to knock though :)

52. Favorite smell?
Elly (last time i write Elly i promise.

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
Butter Popcorn

54. What's something that really bugs you?
Ignorance and bullys

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?
Yes, cant wait for him to Tour the UK as il be there

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?
I need to go to Burger King more.

57. What's your favorite perfume?
Ben Sherman

58. Favorite baseball team?
Boston Red Socks

59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
Accidently those numbers may have been pressed

60. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?
just over a day i think?

61. Last time you went bowling?
Well over a year

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
The ground of a field with lots of Youtubers (amazing though)

63. Who was your last phone call?
Jones I Think

64. Last time you were at work?
Well.........im never not but hush hush

65. What's the closest orange object to you?
The laptop that helps this whole blog work obviously?? OK it says orange......er......My light as its turned low enough to be orange.

Hope you found something new.